* I could use some Love *

2004-08-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

wth is wrong wif my computer!! virus loaded. )): botherss.. well teachers` dae todae. hmm ok so we had mass. sat on the benches to sing in company wif all the other classchairs and vicechairs and prefects. i guess it quite borinn. after that we had something like a picnic, thanks to connie and fiona we had fishhballs! yes. it tasted good.ahahahas 3x hiphiphurrayy.

then me and dianne proceed to the canteen. cus i wanted to wash my oilly handss.there we had the fun of your livess!! never had such hearty laughs! Nat.connie.dianne.me. i t w a s g r e a t!! carrie was like damn cutee. lols owells!! fun. but without melly it seemed pretty empty. ): she was kindaa fainnt and cramps. HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER MELLY.

umx den lessons as usual. for mr chan`s class we watch a video. it was reall really sad. cried. )); its was like a ghost love story. its from thai. where ponsana came from :D yupp guess thats about it. and had fun during chinese wif cheryl as usual.

sorry i dun always update. been busyin. and computer is soo.. slow. yea virus loaded. ok gtg now! good luckie for math ca.

2004-08-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

heyy!! even though the week was short. its feel like a full whole sch week man. damn tired. way over time for me to slp. yea had leader camp todae! soo fun. i tot it would be stupid and all. but i really learn more about how it is being a leader. (: thoma and i sure hhad fun performin the dance thingy. LOLS. PPG!! well yea had fun wif cheryl came up wif new lame sounds.
lols oh and this chinese pop star came to your sch on thusdae i think. yupp everybody was like sooo excited about it. ahahas. chelsia and vanessa. so enthu and c_l_i. not to be named ahahahas. =P ya ok.
fridae. its cool. and sup wif sci. i cant do light practical for nuts!! argh ya and joan. ang fairytale essay was funny! love it. how creative can she get. hehe. kewl.
church tml. *yawn*

i love my pts. for nuts. (:

2004-08-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

ok! Great dae todae! School was 1/2 dae todae. supposed to end at 10.45 but it ended at 10. how cool. and soo lucky tha t my dad said he could fetch me. yes. after that went home and got ready. and i was about to be late meetin cheryl and charlene. but i guess i was on time right? ok so like dianne was no where to be found. den we when to shaw to eat.and we saw dianne wif nicholas. ok so ya den we decided to go far east to eat. thats when...

I SAW TORO. YES ex-ENERGY MEMBER. god he is so so so so hot! better lookin den i`ve ever expect.
even though im not a fan of hisbut he was really really hot. i want to take a picture wif himm! but but i forgot. damnit mann. hai.. it was such a wasted good chance...haii... i know your very jealouss!! ahahhas he was eatin chicken rice too. ((:
den i just went shoppin yupp had fun wif charlene and cheryl though time was soo tight. rush rush man. ): ok so go home. i coulnt find my cutie curl! argh.. ya ok wad can i do.. oh and my ear is infected badly man.. hai.. i guess thats all. and oh it is sucha pity we didnt have time to watch the village. ): ok cya ppl! *yawn*

2004-08-05T19:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BDAE AH MA!

i updated! but blardy blogger and its error. = oh wells had a very tirin dae. math is tough. owells goin out tml. dunnoe wad to wear. nah nah nah. later ill have loads of show to watch. ahahahahas had piano just now so stressful. exam comin mann. i have been practisin like hell! owells..mr chan finally came back. he change places but. mine remained the same. ok thats about it.oh and definately...

Happy National Day

2004-07-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

ok! hi everybody! have cramps now. OW. hahahas very hyper dae todae! we had like 4 free period cus of honoursdae. and durin chinese dianne melly nat and me were tottally slackin though we were given work to do. had soo much fun man. (x missed the honours dae gurls. yupp so nth lor. just slack ard. maths was horrible! like wth. how can i do such shit graphs in 7 mins. H A R D. bothers. oh well. anyway hope to get the geog project done asap.
Piano practical exam comin. I HAVE TO PASS IT.i cant lose to eugene low wen jun! after comin home from sch i started pracisin my piano. i gotta do well. i guess thats bout it. borin life. AND daddy. please stop complainin you whining puss. i know you are tired from the work. but we are all tired too. and mummy has her chors and work to do to kaes. So shuttup and stop be so expectant to be served. but i still love you! so. ya. ok love my family and me the most! ahahahas. (:

2004-07-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE DIANNE aka BITCH

heyy! todae was ok. though calli pissed the hell outta me. i NEED mr chan. to change the places. so do not wan to die sitin wif calli. chinese was fun! but lao shi was so.. like in a bad mood dunnoe sup with her these few daes. and hubby helped cheryl fixed her correction tape after my reconmendation! ahahahs good. ohh! and in the mornin i was pretty pissed about everything. ok onil the 1st and 2nd period i was. and dianne got scoldin! ahahahas cheeky bitch. (x geog ca. hmm faultin was something i didnt understand. and luckily it didnt really come out! yay! i hope this ca turns out well. i wan to do well in my studies! yes!
i wan to go outt! im dyin! i need more clothess! i worn most of my skirt alrdy. i need new one! need jean. gonna buy a levis. and i wan to buy the ZA cutie curl mascara!aiyoh so much to buy. after readin hubby`s blog then i know that there was 50% sale at mambo! WALAMAK. and i missed it! if i knew i wouldnt miss it for the wolr. shucks.. ))))): well watch nip / tuck just now. SICK. the dead head is sick. aiyoh gonna get nitemare. ahahahas sci ca on mondae. good luck ppl! (:

2004-07-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

ok.. sup wif blogger gettin this fool-proof blog design. -__- anyway. i didnt go to sch todae! feelin damn sick. pui--x. )): but still i have to sae..

HAPPY BIRTHDAE ALICIA! (((x

ya ok. i actually have to confess i didnt get you anything! i onil got you that small card. ): sorry.

i have drank like 6 cup of water and ims till so thirsy. hate being sick! ugh. just learn that i missed a very good performance in skewl todae! ahhh! bothers.. ): i miss everybody!
ok its b o r i n g home.just hope that tml wun be filled wif work load pilin up. yupp and i can go back to skewl entertainin ppl!!! (x yupp guess thats about it. ahahhahahahhas.

2004-07-15T21:51:00.001+08:00

Fragile seams,
I opened up too quick and all my dreams,
Were walking out I'd slowly, Lost my fire,
With every single man a river cried,
I had no sensation,
Completely numb,
left with no satisfaction,
I thought no-one could ever get me high again,
I swear,
I was not looking, Oh, waited so long,
I thought the real thing was a fake,
I thought it was a tool to break me down,
You proved me wrong again,
If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down, If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me, Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
Like chocolate, Tastes so good,
My heart's been mended who'd have thought it would,
An empty bet and still I won the cash,
A man who I love and who, Loves me back, Oh, waited so long,
For love to heal me so I'd feel it,
Thought it wasn't breathing then you came, You proved me wrong again,
Like chocolate come here, Zoom in, catch the smile, There's no doubt it's
from you, And I'm addicted to it now, Just one look boy to melt me down,
Just one heart here to save me now, Your candy kisses are sweet I know, Hold
me tight baby don't let go, Just one look boy to melt me down, Just one
heart here to save me now, Your candy kisses are sweet I know, Hold me tight
baby don't let go.

2004-07-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

ok. this week has been pretty horrible. so was last week i guess. wait this week has not ended yet.. ok fine. well i lost $. maybe i threw em awae when i threw my bag awae. now i regret it all. im sucha failure. ok nvm. so maths has been ok. i guess im copin. umx gettin fatter still. cant wait to borrow the shopaholic series book man! cant wait. alrriite.. so yes umx ok i dunnoe. life is too short to be a bitch. lols wadevea. full of fuckers in my class. ok! so im one of em. have to write proposal for mr b.chan later. wth lor. nvm i will do it. but i really am soo irresponsible. i cant stand it.

2004-07-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

well.. 1st week of sch. im still here. VERY GOOD~ lols actually had quite a lot of laughter in sch. fun! and maths was gettin harder. but fun too. had so much fun talk and laughin. yupp entertainment man. youth dae celebration. i rather have childrens dae actually? but like its past.. ): 2/8 was praise todae for passin up their form. im so happy man. (((((((: keep it up 2/8. must not be so nosiy too kaes.
mr chan sang she bang. wad a eediot. and he won. he got vanessa angry. i dunnoe sch is oso a mess. friendship messed up too. poor dianne got sick too. well tats all i guess. busy week. been doin my work. i must do well for this semester. yupp.. SO EXCITIN!
ohh syf tml. so gonna must the ij 150 fest thingy. i dun mind the syf but im gonna miss simple life cause it is gonna end like onil until 9. ):
gonna change the blog skin yeaa.

i hate kerine to the core. wad a loserfied bitch she is. cant stand it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAE ELEANOR!

2004-06-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

C H U R C H C A M P W A S A B L A S T
has so much fun! and my faith wif god was really like strengthen! and i got to see .. *AHAHAHS* for 3 daes and 2 nite! and i made loads of new friends! and knew more about others. it was really really great. learnt loads of new stuffies about jesus and all. it was totally great! i didnt wan to come back from the camp! the food was actually quite good! it was like caterin? wahh like some b`dae parrty something. but it turned kinda cold cause of time delay. hahahas great manns..
warm fuzzy was like part of the camp where ppl could write affirmation about you. and ur envelope is like paste on the wall wif others. and you get it back onil at the last dae. so ya i wrote quiet a lot to others. and yet i still forgot some!! bothers.. well i read mine and im soo touch. though there was some umx mean or lame.. you know the guys. -_-
and i got one from *AHAHAHS* but dunnoe if it was really him. cuz the guys even use like fake names. and read other ppl`s warm fuzzy. hai.. nvm!
durin the camp we learnt a new song! the 'dip dip' song. ahahahs it is soo freakin cute and nice! actions was really nice to do and.. hahas little akward in front of the guys. hahas really enjoyed myself. yea...
after the camp i found tat it is really noisy to be back. i think. but ya.. i rather not come back too anyway.. but i`d miss me friends! ahahahs sup yall! 3 daes.. so short. but it is long. but now it all seem to short.
gotta do my skewl work. got some to finish up. hair to cut. oh i think my face looks better. new skin product workin! ahahahas and den my top to buy. and volla. (: miss you all out there is YAY bitch got her computer workin. hahahas love you all! peace ouy and god bless! oh.. there is a 8 cm long or so grasshopper outside my window. hahas freaky!

2004-06-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

hahas bot eye lash curler! yes. finally. alrrite. i cant stand it! ir eally really wan tat perfume. can be found at red earth or 3pirt. depends which one u go to lahhs. Captive kaeS? $39. hais... bothers oh well had a new chinese tution teacher.not bad. im stickin on to her. :P umx when to j8 wif my sister. yeaa shopped ard. kaes been going ard wif a headache.. ugh x_x well church camp comin. and it suxs seriously. but i wanted to go there wif an open mind. but guess its not gonna work. yea been pretty ~~short fuse at home. my mum is just horribly pissin mi off. and piano teacher askin mi to cut of my very very very beautiful nails. CANT BEAR EM! T_T~~
well tats bout it. umx still have like maths sci and chinese. its horrid! i wish to go to wild wild wet mann. hhas fun i heard hubbby sayin. ohh! i HAVE to go to bugis and herren. got thingys to buy! ((: cant wait. yea.. k lah. rot rot rot. i really wish skewl hols would last for 2 more week. bothers..

2004-06-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

ahahahas. ok been rottin at home. bothers. hows the blogskin? ahahas. todae was melvin`s bdae. too bad i couldnt go. i feel quite disappointed about it. i wasnt feelin well and transport was a problem. sigh..wad can i do. wad im most upset about is the present. i cant pass it to him. oh well..
The OC is now. i wan to win the soundtrack mann. hahas so yes. i wonder if i could get tat lucky. *prays* i hate all the hols homework we have ugh.. well tats about it. (: im gettin fatterr dae by daeee..

2004-06-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you, I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

2004-05-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

watchin ami. hahas fantasia won. saw it on msn homepage. bothers. but im stll watch it. i support fantasia always!! jasmine is suchca loser? all she do is scream. im just so pissed that she took la toya chance in being in the finals. damnit. owells didnt go to sch todae. i regret! foto orders prob. 2/8 do come and tell me ur order. have to wad fax em or call the peopl about ur orders. -_- im sorry i didnt come to sch and do it by myself. neway..

wednesdae was so fun. recyclin project! had so much fun. and ttupid dianne was goin crazy. hahas had fun ammusin cheryl and lettin her entertain me. i came up wif such a cute idea! hahas the endin result of our grp work was great. hahas fun manns...

okaes so i guess thats about it actually. well my blogger is umx messed up. the tag board over rides my post. and my links are umx all the way there. hahas will TRY to get it rite. just so pei cek at friendster. so much problems. OHH NO!! i feel a pimple comin my way!! ahhh!!! sheesh..hahas ok nvm! just chillin. so scared for sat. collectin thy report book and seein tan aye leng. hahas thats bout it. i had something to write about somemore just now.. but i cant remember. nvm!! hahas..

2004-05-19T18:42:00.000+08:00

Watching every motion
In my fooish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn to me and say

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching everything motion
In this foolish lovers game
Haunted my the notion
Somewhere there's a love in flames
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn my way and say

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

2004-05-19T17:49:00.000+08:00

i had a post about goin out. den it got deleted. wth. ok nvm i`ve got a shit headache. didnt go skewl todae. went to the doc. my toe hurrs. either way ya im too tired now. i love u all. i miss rachel poon mei yun. ok bye. i`ll get in trouble tml for not goin to sch..owells. cya peps

2004-04-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

bahhs...im so tired and drain out. sigh i came out feelin empty. yet happy as dianne has pierce her ear. i felt a sense of sadness as i enter my room and lied and my bed. i obvious didnt know wad it was. well finally got up to turn my laptoppy on. yea..english mid year todae. was pretty shit. but hopefully i`ll pass through it. toe hurts. may call for another operation. i love my hubby. nat looks good wif her hair cut. yupps. and i hate myself. i hate myself for lovin you. but i do not know. who is you. guess its mi i love. ~~selfobsession.~~

2004-04-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

Manipulated romance ... pretty speeches in the dark ... banging on your
big drum ... you captivate
... their hearts ... but underneath the mask ... is a man of straw ... a
master of excuses ... closing
every door ...
I don't wanna hear your name. I don't wanna feel your pain. I don't have
to play your
game. I'm stronger, things have changed, I'm no longer in fools, fools
paradise ... fools
paradise ...
Your poetic inspiration ... is a work of art ... but your obsession with
the glory ... rules a
self-centered heart ... accumulative hatred ... living in fear ... and
when the bitterness is over ...
another victim reappears ...

2004-04-30T22:08:00.000+08:00

i miss you like crazy. but who is you?

2004-04-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

germaine_ You are an Artist!
(Dominant Introverted Abstract Feeler)
You are an ARTIST (DIAF)— creative, adventurous, and deep. Although you are an introvert, your dominant ideas lead you to assert yourself often— especially through your work. You actively put your creativity to constructive use, and because you are ruled by your heart you are less likely to be inhibited by logic.

You have an intuitive understanding of emotion and know how evoke it in others, but the real world can be a prison of foolishness and embarrassment if you don't get your head out of the clouds a little more. Also, you are 87% likely to write poetry. Please, for the love of God, stop now.

2004-04-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

wahoo!!! got the song done. good i bet u ppl will like it. durrs cause i lovee it can?! hahas. kk its late. and yes church tml.. *grumbles*

2004-04-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

goin to do my cme project thingy. didnt wan to update my blog. but seein my darling pts askin me to update i cant help it! dun wanna disappoint my fans hurrs. (: just painted my toenails. tot they looked pretty good. hahas thats wad i personally think lahss. after my project gonna have to choose my clothes of tml.
church tml. gotta wake up like..fukkin early can!? SFX at seragoon. and i live at Bukit Timah!? wth...got to reach there by 7.30 tml cause my mum and i gotta get chicken curry there.heh wad shit sia wad shit. nvm a little sac- ree-fise goes a long way. hahas but still.. i have to get up like..wadd to get ready! clothes..hair..blahhs taxi. =|
been horrid. failed my science as expected. comforted that calli failed too. but pissed that she ~~failed higher~~ den me. its ok. fridae pe wos..HORRID
got horribly wet. bitch lahs u dianne. she is grounded so ya. she cant come online to see this!! *sticks out tongue* hahas had loads of fun wif her this wholle week. :D bitch sister forevea! and i`ll shuddup if u ask me to. and i`ll disappear if u ask me too. to watch ur mouth heh darling. wakaka.
back to pe. natty is mean! huh hubby wan to kill ur wife issit?! kaes kaes. will do will do. *glares* helped dianne in gettin me wet wif water!? paased her my water bottle to get me wet. and i didnt do anything wrong. at all. den i run to where toe jing ling was sitin. and hahas dianne didnt dare to anything. (x well i wos ttupid. could get the water onto her. hahas den when i rested on my hubby. i poured just A LITTLE BIT of water on her back. and screwed she pour h2o on me. and water all over my hair. which i hate ppl messin my hair up beeig time. so yes. i wos bieeg time pretty pissed wif her. ~~bad hubby.~~
well saturdae. stayed home to do my home work. shucks exams are comin. cant go out. broke. savin up. ohhh! i saved up like $9 this week! hahas yes yes. i`ll do better next week. (: yes my motheris so annoyin. broken recorder cant get the past over her. bitch eys thats about it. weird lahhs this blog. some ppl hear music. and some dun. sheesh. i`ll figure that out!

2004-04-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

well well! it has been a looonngg and..maybe a pretty bad week yes...
thursdae
netballfinals. we won. again. both c and b div. yay! u should have seen my hubby playin! natty! lols lao gong. ((x
so proud of her. i knew she was good. but didnt know she wos THAT good. yeaa..saw her playin..so excitin. firm nat. lols soo tall! was screamin my lungs out wif dianne and eleanor. hehe.. i like it i like it i like it~~~~~

fridae
just suxs. i dunnoe whiee..but..i tot it suxed. pe wos horrid. bieeg time. =| bahh missin dianne. bitch lah she. fridae wos..booorrriinngggg and after that i had to wait in class for like until 4 for my cousin. to go to her house to suffer.. piano lessons. lols thats bout it i guess. went home to slp. damn tired. *yawn*

todae! saturdae..boy was it a fun dae or wat babeh! wakakaka well todae i woke up early again to get ready to go to tp interchange to meet ali. lucky she came out of her house early. or i would be alone in macs. den we ate breakfast and talked about.. the gossip gurl thing lah. den met thoma... and eunice and thoma`s sister b4 i forget. and we when to NYJC for ur 2.4!
wahahahaha it wos like damn nice. NYJC track looked so big. i scared me. bwahaha well i ran! it wos fun lah though i also died. den a few guys were sittin down. nice of them to cheer mi on. i think onil 1 did. but i cld see lah. bwahaha imagine how malu if i fainted! lols! yea but thxs to em i had THAT LITTLE bit of encouragement. lols lamers. i sprinted in the last rd. i wos happy about it i think
wonder if i wos fast? nobody wos tellin mi anything except that my face turn red like neva before. lols sounds so cute. (x not that im cute but the fact that my face turns that red. dohh so happi dianne wos there for me. yahh!! supportin me when i came back dead from the track. lols yea. den went back to tp interchange wif suki, ali and that egoist calli. went to eat. i ate almond longan! wahaha sweet. (:

after that i made my loonngg journey back home. oh i was wearin my exp nike black sports bra. love it!! felt so good. ok so ya mademy way back. den bathe and got ready for chuch at st ignatius. wahaha the church damn big seh. saw jill toh there. didnt know she goes to that church. well i wos suppose to give out some leftlets. but i didnt see any of my seniors. so yes... kinda wasted my time. but nvm! tml no need to attend cat class. hahas got my clothes ready liao.. but so sian to go cat class... nvm..i`ll be slpin now. (:

oh we had 3 cas this week. it was shit. fucckit all. bet i flunk the sci like bieegg time badly. =| kays u ppl takecare. haven found music to put in my blog yet. owells...

2004-04-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

im feelin for you
deep in my dream
i see you
i feel you
longin to be with you

could tell u are driftin
but yet
could tell u are with me
you are what people call
so near yet so far

it wasnt the looks
it wasnt that status
it wasnt the money
it was just
you

i could tell that i took ur breathe awae
i could tell that you knew i was outspoken
i could tell that i left an impression
i could tell that i would be in your life for a period of time
but
you couldnt make that happen
cause it was someone else who took my breathe awae.

you read contridiction.
you read with confusement
so profound yet how you understand
with that pain in your heart.

theres no right
theres no wrong.
just me
and you
and a few someones beside us.
i wouldnt leave the world for you
but
i`ll leave my world for yours

weird how people always do not like what they have
yet how people like what they find it hard to get
is this the instinct in people where they find the need for challenge?
or could it be just that we are greedy?
there wouldnt be an answer.
no one understands a human so very well.

im not in love
im not filled with hatred
im not sad
im not depress
im not happy
im not loved
im not deprived
im not everything you think i am
i am
everything
i wan me to be.

2004-04-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

ok like i like this skin. but the music just wun come out. lols well..bought a new sandal and new top. i like it very very much. lols tmls sundae. easter yes. ahh have to get up like way early to get ready for church way early in the mornin. some sec 2 formation thingy. lols have to waer pretty formal. which i do not have clothes to..do so. lols wad shit. owells dun realleh have anything to sae just that because of calli im sick now. hate this flu bug in my class. lols 1/2 the ppl of 2/8 is sick. wad sadness. im missin dianne now! lols yes..and im soo whiney. tellin my father how much i wan the nokia 6230. *wails* lols kk cya. i shall go and enjoy my oreo. (:

2004-04-08T16:08:00.000+08:00

fuckin screwed lah my blog. it is takin so loong to load. i mean the template part. i cant change my skin in peace. oh bother. been a realleh long time since i blogged. still missin dianne. lols and lovin my nemo. and my husbands. and all my darlings. (((: when for band concert at VCH it was fcukin good. u go dino owner! u go emili! i loved it. i wanted to put a picture of it. but i dunnoe how to do so..so nvm. i `ll be addin a album after i get my skin changed. ((: yay~ lols flu bug goin ard my class now. so scary. arghh i wan a new handphone! not that i cant get a new one... but the one that i wan to trade in for is like 640+ i mean 6230! beiigggg time. :( owells.... neway the class is so noisy. and i hate that. i suck. i dun wan to be the chair anymore. so 2/8 we should have a revote kays. i wan the points. but since i dun got respect and u ppl dun take my word seriously. den i dun see whats the point. maybe u ppl are better off that way.

ahh my cardboard is damn messy. after my trip to thailand. all the clothes are just piled up. lols i love zoe hair cut. yay~ favv junior. lols oh my sister cut her hair and she passed her drivin test FINALLY. lols. owells shall get her to drive me ard once she gets a car. lols..thats about it. and im goin to cut my har in june. lols cant wait. im pretty down and pissed out todae. ~~fail my maths.~~ wrost thing that can happen. i love maths yet i cant do well in it. it just breaks my heart. failed by 1 mark. =| wtf is that...i wish i was more confident. =| and i could i gotten that mark.. owells thats bout it. god it is so hot now..lols tml is good fridae. yay~ the sky is gonna turn black..maybe it might rain..hmm... yes thats bout it. watch out for my new blog skin. (:

2004-03-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

hey!! been a pretty good dae. though tml i gotta go sch and do my hw...lols....todae went to church late! reach there around 11.10+ and when i reached there...they were all like doin station of the cross and were at the 14 station!? hahas..den it was over le.. hurrs!! so like i went for the brief 10 min+ den finish le. hahax topid. after that went to canteen to makan wif kitty -purrs- den sat around saw some cute guys and rhian went crazy...as usual Oooo i bought 2 lolly! hahax den went to town wif my cousin to go and meet my long ago chinese tution teacher from china at orchard. have not seen her for 3 years++ which seems very long..how time pass. lols well she looks real prety now and all. couldnt recongnise her. and she was like " ah! -mychinesename- hao jiu bu jian! den dunnoe wad in chinese. " lols been missin her, shes the best tution teacher i have had (: she will be goin for next week to china den american to live wif her hubby. aww its a long long story so i wun wan to say to all here. yupp shall make my bitch jealous by sayin....i bought my sunglasses!!! lols XP and hairbands and a new ring. (: yintin is dianne quail egg now. and im her fellow quail mate. lols! trust me and dianne to think of such corny stuff. well thats bout it...yup a pretty ok day. hahax next week tues is sports dae! maybe shall go out and eat wif my cousin. lols and dianne too ((((: ya thats bout it.
was playin truth or dare in sch on fridae as mr chan didnt come and all. free period! havoc seh..lols and i wos dared to kiss gwen darlin. cos i did. she was shocked. den ppl sae she started blushin. so cute! sorry bout it gwenie!
i changed my blog skin. hope ur like it! and hows the blog music? owell feedbacks are welcomed! kk gtg and sleep! cya~ ((:

2004-03-27T01:12:00.000+08:00

All saints _ under the bridge

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a problem
Sometimes I feel like my only friend
Is the city I live in The city of city's
Slowly as I am, together we cry we cry we cry

I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)

I drive on the straight, cuz he's my companion
I walk through his field, cuz he knows who I am
He see's my good days, and he kisses me in day
I'm gooiinnnn, now that is love

I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
(One time two times three times four times)
It's hard to believe there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe that I'm all alone
At least I have his love the city he loves me
Lonely as I am together we cry

I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
I don't ever wanna feel (Like I did that day)
Take me to the place I love (Take me all the way)
All the way All the way All the way All the way
All the way All the way

2004-03-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

wahahahah wad a long time it has been b4 i have updated up dated my darlin blog lolx goin to change skin this sat or fri cant stand this gloom im goin to change it with something bright and.chirpy! lols...owell i really have a lot of sae esp bout my trip to thailand durin the march hols.. hee i bought like really a lot of stuffs. i went wif like 1 luaggage shared with my mum..and i came back with like 4? hahas! i bought loads of skirts and new tops. bought 2 new wallet or purse i dunnoe. it is juz really really new loads of new earrin and hair thing thing. oh ya i cut my hair bout 3 daes ago. really like it though ppl sae it looks almost the same damnit. lolx i miss dianne hahas :X omg i went out last sat and i found it a little wasted as like...i dunnoe seriously howevea i spent a dae wif dianne and rhian includin nic. hahax so it wasnt really all that bad. owells in thailand pretty interestin things happen...but since im laggin so behind and it will be too long for me to go into details.i shall leave it. nth much happen juz that im totally slackin in my work. not workin hard. so yes im spendin less time on the net.however been feelin tired i dunnoe why. juz easily worn out. hahax i`ve got a new printer and my sister bought a digi cam. yay~ i can use it whenever i wan. provided i dun spoil it and i gotta ask my sista for permission.ok its getin real late and theres sicken sch tml however i get to see dianne ali thoma mel and all my other eediots. (: realeh kays! my ttupid printer. knn sia. kays byebye darlings (:

2004-03-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

Ok so been pretty trouble with soe problems. Im still confused but i kinda sorted em out. cheryl is now my buddy! to push me at my work. Thx you cheryl. I`ve been slackin and i really want to get back on track. yupp. I guess this week would be the busiest week as it is the week before the march hols and teachers wants to get a lot of things done. sian. Im still at depression mode cause i cant celebrate y b`dae wif my fwens and... someothers.. sad but ya i get to shop till i drop at thai. owells pros and cons. omg i so depesperate for a camera. *whines* sigh i really really wanna be in singapore on the dae of my bdae..sigh...
This sat which is this coming sat im going to have my piano theory exam. scary but ya ill pass it wif borderline marks. After my exam would be going home and gettin ready to fly off in the evenin flight sae ard 8+ call me and tell me to have a safe journey! hahax :X owells..will be back on wednesdae i think. oh umx theres this converse 3 on 3 bball match. at orcard ard taka there is seems. and yes u cant believe who is takin part in it =| weird but neway i shant sae it here. XP
i was invited to go and watch it. lolx but i aint free on that dae..se maybe shall juz drop by if im done wif my activity..and theres full dress reherse on fridae.sad.
Im so happy i back in sch with all my frens and esp. dianne my bitch. hahax oniL thing is that her mother pissed her off. sigh...and she wun go to band concert with me! fine fine....hummphh...... ok so im burning the cd for tml`s ep mtv thing. and it is takin so forevea -__-|| ookaes......so thats it folks. and mr ong zi xuan i know u got a blog and wun tell me the addy! fine fine fine! *curses* oh ya! todae we have cat class in sch and it was so interestin. it was bout the...umx Oooweiiga board. hahax scary! PLZ PLZ PLZ ppl out there whom i know dun kid around wif these kind of black spirit thing thing. *prays* and there has been changes in the sitin arrangement. im sitin wif calli now freaky that she entertains herself. lolx ya guess thats bout it.... juz that i cant be in sg on my bdae really piss me off at times...cuz im more sad than pissed. hahax i luv my nemo. (: dianne! i rawk! hahaha. ya guess thats bout it.

ya and chelsia wadevea how u spell her name got highest in chinese as usual. wad a freak. i shall improve on knn cheena freak chinese. yes ok time to koon cya darlings. i love u all and buy me a camera :X jk. get mi bras kaes!! :X:X

2004-03-06T03:05:00.000+08:00

I´ve flown too high
On borrowed wings
Beyond the clouds and where the angels sings
In a sky containing
No one here but me
Up there´s all empty
And down there´s the sea
No one here but me
There´s nothing but light
That comes into sight
There´s something up that makes me wince
And I still got the feelingsThat I´ve felt ever since I got to this place
Arrived at last
In front there´s the future
Right back there´s the past
Everything´s moving so fast
There´s nothing but light
That comes into sight
The present like I´ve never seen it before
Is this the right place to stay
Please wings
Fly me away

2004-03-06T03:04:00.000+08:00

was sick..didnt go to sch... suppose to go for a camp in the mornin todae...but cant cuz the doc said i shouldn`t go. hai.... missin out on some fun... owells... juz feelin freakin sucky now..lolx...i miss dianne and all my fwens soo much... nemo~ ali~ you alll!!! hai....I hate it i hate it i hate everything. I juz wanna die now. now. i wanna die. hai..... knnbccb ok juz needed to get soe fuckin thing off my chest....and mmy keyboard is screwed.... can`t type a fullstop properly and the letter mmm too have to press on it so many times b4 it comes out...sad. wadevea!! i juz wan to die. my bdae pressie :D

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

2004-03-06T02:58:00.000+08:00

As I sail with you across the finest oceans
On a way to find the key to our emotions
Together we will move the clouds to brighter days
Some people question what I say
Tried to break up you and me
But I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus:]
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and pain for time so long to wait
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

[Chorus]

For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever

[Chorus]

You don't miss your water girl no
But I believe so strongly in you and I yeah
Can somebody answer me the question why
Cause you don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry yeah listen
If you ever get the feeling
You wanna play around starting cheating, remember
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry

2004-03-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.

thats juz how i feel now. Don`t bother waitin. if you cant. Cause i dont miss my water till the well runs dry.

2004-03-03T00:45:00.000+08:00

heh..im feeling so sucky now.
Was practisin on my h.e prac. hahax..it went horri. hope tml it will be better. and nemo!! thx you so much for bring my thing thing. hai..i hate love. Weird hurrs, to me at least. i mean it should be like..sweet..nice..and all lovey dovey bahh.. i dunnoe i really just want to be with my fren. have a solitude time. Being alone in my house where everything i quiet and its in the night. i enjoy that just fine. I do yearn for love. care. concern. but maybe all these are too much for me to comprehand now. Im really in love with who i dunnoe. maybe thats the part im confused about. I would think..runnig might be something good. but in the end. everything is going to end. all comin to a stop. you leave me. i leave you. a bing boohoo. wadevea. i sux kays i sux for the 1st time ever. and my complexion is getting worst..hahax..shit germaine chng. kk goin to sleep..juz though of writin a little something so that i can sleep in peace. and i really wan to go out on sundae. hope .YOU. are free hurrs. but i know you dun read my blog. lolx
Xuan evil kays. juz leave my # *sniffles* orite..gotta go and koon..kanina. :D i loev you dianne. nemo. mel. and calli dun bullwee joannie poo. and thoma.. stop suaning me > <

2004-03-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Wounded

picking up the pieces of your shattered heart
as you try to stay alive

is it me who feels the pain of life
and all it's fractures of need and grief

drifting through the haze
of fear and disillusion

trying to make sense
of what it all means

i can't see the answers anymore

is the pain just in my head
or has the light gone out

forever

try to see the way to all
that i have lost

i can't hear the voices anymore

feel the absolution
to all that has been found

i can't feel the warmth anymore

picking up the peices
of your shattered dreams

how will i breathe tomorrow
if i can't feel the pain anymore

2004-03-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

*yawn* juz woke up 2 1/2 hours ago :X i wos tired kays!! Todae was suppose to hve chinese tution... but as usual..*ahem i pon tution.. AGAIN! wakakaka... lazy germy. *grins* sigh..i really wan a camera!! BIG TIME! GIVE ME THE CAMERA NOW!! *Brawls* i wan it soo freakin badly.. hai.. owells..
Yesterdae had student leader investiger.. wadeva i cant spell it. lolx was pretty fun and sji, ri, rgs and some other sch came hurrs to join the..big event. and i was makin fun of them wif vicki of 2/7.. heh i was so afraid i would pee :X for some lame reason. hahax omg!! yesterdae had some really bad news.. well..to me at least. This sat theres ANOTHER leadership thing for class com.. and i can`t go out AGAIN! oommmggg i wanna go out so badly..sigh =| bloody hell! I DECIDED! shall go out on sundae.. i must i must i must! sigh its been pretty sucky these few daes.. death lingers around. all exams around the corner. love suxs. project. can`t go out. freakin loads of camp. pfft..and i can`t get a camera. and..my b`dae gonna sux. =| listening to my immortal..ugh got the solitude feelin again.. owells tml got a h.e pratical.. im bound to fail!! ahhhhhhh..but den again when did i not fail my exams. guess thats bout it..hahax i dunnoe wat to sae.. now
oh ok todae had umx 1/2 dae cuz the sec 4s did well in their o`lvl! Sec 4 of 2003 u rox! thx yew for later get half dae.. lolx they might as well let us..not go ta sch at all.. waste my time~! ohh ya i bough 2 new pens todae weet. really great colours..and poor dianne broke!! heh can`t buy any pens :b ahh thats bout it. i miss -whoeve- so much. ok seriously dianne.. maybe i shall go lesbian. after all if im les im sure i`ll be popular wif all the chiobu coming hurrs. Im the macho one *smirks*
ugh gotta go out on sundae! Date me ppl date me!! come on hurrs!!! *brawls* and giiveee me my camera!! *brawls even more* wadevea..shall do my CME project which is so ever lame and get ready for my practial exam. -__-

2004-02-29T13:53:00.000+08:00

hai.... been realli sad and depressing these few daes...owells didn`t go to sch on fridae! bet ya all miss me heh? :X Was the freakin saddesssttt dae evea.. The wake and lah..creamation (how to spell?!) hai..sad but ya i know she has gone up to heaven where there is eternal life without pain and suffering. (:
hahax yesterdae was such a great dae!! had so much fun. wakakaka.. Has General Leadership Camp. Got to School round 7.40 and this.. umx Hyper uncle was telling us wat was going to happen for the rest of the dae. hahax..we totally freaked out when we heard there must be leeches during the hike *wide eyes* After that the ICs came..instructer or some sort.lolx and we got one..dat look like petrina! LOLX!! Calli was like goin realli crazy -____- Well my team was pretty dead its still morning after all. hahax so me and dianne has to think of a grp name last minute..and the Creative us decided... Mudd!! bwahahahaha kewl heh!! ((x Den we had to think of a cheer.. and i came up wif the lamest one! cause..nobody was thinkin of one..at all!! hummph.. FeeL the mudd FeeL the Mudd... Feel the power of the mudd. den..something which i freakin can`t remember -___-||
Well the bus dropp us right in the middle of no where and from mandai we hiked to bukit timah!! bahhx..tiring. So to decide who goes first we had like oohyaapayyyaa soome. :X So in the end left me and jiLL.. So Sic...papp...ston..tie to the end 2:2 and... I WON the last one!! Muwahahahaha wif a stone *grins* So we went 1st!! yay~!! It was a lot bout decision makin and calli was a pretty good leader. Though she was flirtin wif the Ic..lolx petrina look alike. ((x Well it was a long journey and we got lost a long the way..but got back on track wif the unity of the mudd! ahhhh we went to this water part..where there was mud eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my shoe and track pants got dirty!! Knn.. ugh but..nvm lolx. The ic was good too in the sense he encourage us. and.. was entertaining himself at the back.. lolx..... Owells... after a looonngg hike when we were bout to finish.. There was these lllooooonnnngggg biiigggg stair..either way to make it short.. we had to walk like a lot. Ohhh and im a soon to be sprinter!! did i spell it rite in the 1st place.. bawaahhahaa.. Was so happi to be wif dianne!! hahax we were the hyper one :D we rawk!! durr oh wells.. there were too many thing takin place to write em all :X when i got back home we head.. WAS SPLITTING ughhh very very bad headache *cries* when to slp at round 10. yepp sad that i couldn`t go out wif dianne..hai..juz glad that Mr goh msg me. hahax..
Feelin very confused these few daes...but owells.. juz wanna go out thats all and have fun and to be loved. ((: gtg to study for my lit exam heh.. cya darlings!! *muacks*

2004-02-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

kays... feeling very very worn out and pissed now :| hai... sorry haven been updating heh. was in school thinking tis is going to be a damn good entry cuz.. i was all hyper and happy. but god my dae was totally..like ruin. Shall get to it later..

Been pretty much thinking bout..like how love is not going to last yet people are involving themselves in a relationship. I pretty much know whoevea "My He is going to be..will leave me in the end. hahax..weird that things happened so fast...I really can`t leave cuase im afraid to..and me saying this is not a clue to anybody.. kays.. :| Well v`dae.. it roxs.. to me a least. (:

Valentines Day
umx..got up pretty early to get ready and all.. but still was late in meeting dense. :| sorry* Den was like walking around the mrt station looking for him wif my cuz sherlyn darling* hahax...blur me..even though i knew it was dense i spotted i didn`t dared go up to him..paiseh. Well so.. was siting down..next to this guy wif sherlyn..and dense den came and sit. I though it was..bad! kays seriously bad for me to keep him waiting..so i move and sat next to dense and said hi. He`s such a pussy. didn`t even sae hi to me. bahhx- so ya..walk walk..j8 is freaking boring lah kays. den went ard wif my cussy to find her pressis for her bf she meeting later.. den since it was so boring we went to orchard. There i saw sukian. she said hi to me..i wished she didn`t though :| She was suppose to meet her irc fren called..mike. sounds gay. :X den he didn`t turn up..even if he did they didn`t know wat ..they both look like!

Den walked ard..when to ceni to buy lighter for meLviN. I was so please wif it.. however wanted to buy the whole set of lighter..pool ball kind of lighter..but 1 ball missin..and the price was..lolx..shall save up for it heh. den...sat at burger king.. bahh i really dun feel like writing anymore..pissed..freaking sad now. *brawls* sigh.. den told xuan like im going off..so walked him to the mrt station..and said bye. He was reallli freaky by being very quiet. and sukkian kept suaning him. But he deserved it. :X

Kays..so when to herren and mr goh called. so met him. and.. god so sweet his flowers with the bear. and bahhx- and some other details...blah~blah~ den when to catch the movie 'last samurai' he watched it b4..but i haven. and..he himself wanted to watch it..soo.....(: we did! can`t wait for 'honey' to come out..im so gonna watch it. yea..God he is so tall. met wif dianne..and she was exclaming how...tall melvin is. -__- but...ya! god he is frekaing tall can. i feel so small .__. kk enuff bout v`dae. shall keep it to myself now.

ermx..another dae.
bahh..4got bout wat happen tis sch week.. :| Talk bout todae..todae was damn fun!! hahax..We went to bukit chandu for a history field trip.. and bastard chan kiasu..take the 1st bus..and the dear aircon broke down. -__-|| and it was so hot > . <; my nemo was being bake in the heat..lolx. well despite the heat.. after we got down we started having fun. Learned and understand bout the WW2 during the trip. When to umx..larberdor (dunnoe how to spell! :X) park..was really really nice the view there. Dianne and i wanna go there with.. *whoevea* and *whoevea* wun it be so sweet* yepp..i mean we did some other things..crap during the trip but..no nid to say it here. When we were on the way back to school. The dear bus was working fine... thx god. (x Den 2/8, my class started cheering.. really great and fun. I could feel the class spirit. You see em doing the cheers.. yet some ppl neva cheer! put in some effort to join in lah.. its not like..lame or wat. Maybe to you it is! but...is a class spirit that is going to bring us through the year heh. (: den said a prayer when we were reaching the sch. I lead the prayer! was so please wif it . ^^;;

pissed.. god my father is so freaking petty.. =| bahhx- and my freaking mother ruin my b`dae..and so did the piano exam.. sigh... my plans for my b`dae..ruin. =| i realli wanna go out on that dae.. stay out late in the nite. dun wan to be stuck at home. bahhx..ruin..maybe wun be in singapore..all ruin...wadevea.. the more i think bout it.. ugh even though u may think it is such a small matter is realli meant a lot to me..sigh *cries* *screams* I miss `-youu-` bahhx.. thats bout it.. shall try anf update more often.. been pretty rush..and a fast week. yepp.. cya. tc. (:

2004-02-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

I feel this pain.
The cause of confusion.
I feel this emptiness.
The cause of departure.
I feel this loneliness.
The cause of you.
I feel this depression.
The cause of Love.

Strangers we were.
Fated was the meet.
First word was exchanged.
Conversation came.
Friendship expectedly came.
Feelings sets in unknowingly.
The first approach, surprisingly.

I didn`t feel right.
I didn`t feel secure.
I didn`t feel noticed.
I didn`t feel happy.

I was lost.
Lost in youu.
I was empty.
Thirsty for care.
I was confuse.
What did I want.
I was deprive.
For something deep.
For something in you.
For something that some call
Love.

I didn`t want to fall.
I didn`t want to leave.
I didn`t want to hurt.
I didn`t want to think.
I didn`t want to care.
I didn`t want to understand.

Threes a crowd.
Twos a couple.
ones... me.
Leave me behind.
I stay fallen.

The warmth in my heart.
It faded.
The rush of blood to my cheeks.
It stop.
I understood it.
I really did.
I wasn`t drunk.
I wasn`t uncertain.

I knew it was time.
I knew it was right.
My heart knows it.
My heart wouldn`t lie.
Yet it has too much confusion.
Yet it couldn`t relate to you.
Yet maybe this time...
Love found me.

2004-02-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

ayee!! So long never update my blog. *blow the dust awae* hahax shall give you my whole load of crap here now! (x

Sunday is it feb or jan still?
Wahoo!! I know today is going to be a good day man. LoLx my planing! church in the morning, shopping..eatting wadevea and mugging wif all my darlings in the afternoon. Gamble crap and drink in the nite. How nice!! ((x ((x Gosh i was..8min late for cat. class.. and rhian wont wait for me!!! E V I L~!! hummph.. and the new cat. teacher is wayy so borring. almost died in the klass. *yaWn* I wore a skirt on that day kays! And was the odd out..sheesh..den some said my skirt looks..ehx..hmmz..like thatweird! I thought it was nice though :X Ok so Jason is in waterpolo! how cool, guess thats why he skin colour is so..ehx..bronze and..something else.lolx but he`s as blur as ever.. you know the kind that looks like he is going to bang into the wall anytime. yepp. Den i saw Rhian`s dearie.. shuan. shit my god..shall not say anything nemore..juz that he has this damn bad fashion taste. *can`t go on saying* Rhian darling no need so shy lah kays..lolx
So like after that rhian followed me to find didi~ god i so could not see and..find her. went ard the whole church. walked back and fro.. thats how hard it was dianne!! lolx. FINALLY met her..den we set off in search of a taxi.. God taxi dun see ppl like they used ta! For 1/2 hr.. we could not haiL one taxi.. at all! Either the drivers were blind or taken up by somemore else.. In the end.. rachh darling called and told us to take a bus.. hahax crapp` wasted time. (x den reach herren bough rachh darling her b`dae pressie!! Me and didi was sooo proud of it..hehe (: Den meet Melly joannie and connie. hahax walked to ceni and meet rachh at.. wats that shop called again? Either way we ate..den we crapp and graceee and a few others came! hahax. Fun fun. Took piic and all. :D den melly pierce her 3rd ear hole! shox brave.. no pain! *clap clap* after that when a little shopping.. still couldn`t get anithing for meL and calli* sigh... After that when we were going off to hereen my cuz sherlyn darling called. She said she was in ceni too.. so meet up wif her and her *bleep* [ u get it rite? lolx :X ] den walked to hereen. hahax when hereen and i can`t remember wat we did..but walked ard. went to take neoprint and saw jamie..saw cheryl tan. 2/7 one heh. yupp den i was late meeting my cuz! was suppose to meet her at 5.30. end up..was late till 6.15+ kays! butt..not mah fault!! people cut in the que.. and and.. the couples in front take damn loong kays!! so meet her wif her *bleep* den when off to que for a taxi. blah blahx.. the journey was juz me crapp.. no nid for your to know.lolx

Ahh! after the journey reach my godmother`s house, which was sherlyn housse.hahax not much people there yet..and we actually rushed home!! causing mi..not being able to watch the last samurai... *cries* was so sadd k.. *sniffles* Well went down to buy some cupps for the party..and ya..had more hongbaos to collect! (x den more people came.. the teens.. melvin.dawn.ian.sheryl..juz all of em came. hahax..ok! no boring part! the nice part.. we went down to 7-11!!!!! WEEEEEEEEE~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!! And Ian helped mi and melvin get some alcohol!! weee~!! how sweet :X gosh i was oniL 1/2 drunk and they were like..ur drunk..your drunk..pllweess!! oversensitive.lolx. I reget being so high..and tired..and oniL 1/2 drunk..cuz they wun let mi buy another bottle.. T___T oh bothers.. hummphh den..liddat. after drinking.. went up to the house and played mahjong. i didn`t know wat was really happening den..hahax realli tired at that point of time. > . <;; juz that..and i went home at 4.20am!! eeeee so tired kays.. was stoning there .__. well u`ll be too if you woke up at 7.15 and slpt or still awake ard 4am+ hahax..kk thats all for sundae. long entry heh..

Monday.. feb 1 or 2 arhx?
kk..todae had loads of hw to rush kays!!! pity mi! but.. im lazy..so ya..hehe (x so when out to eat wif my cuz family and all..i even had to bring my hw out to do.. how pai seh :| had a pretty good dinner hehe ya.. i left my comp on..and ya..blahblah!! *blushes for some reason the readers dun nid to noe* (x thats all.. i woke up late so nth much.hahax

The schooling daes... -__-||
ayee..nth..plain boring and about my science paper.. not much scolding.actually no scolding at all juz copy out tables.. borrinng.. being veri tired and having late nite..burn the midnite oiL to study for CAs..do my hw.. rush tis and tat. sigh..nth much..and i wan to watch the last samurai! argh..wadevea...ok nth.much liao.. cuz its soo late now..so hehe i wanna slp! yupp

hows the song for the blog? or should i change it to too lost in youu by sugababes? hmmz.. can`t decide..hahax give feedbacks lehz!!! *god bless ya all!! nitey. (:

2004-01-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

Never - Amanda Perez

You walked into my life, when i was down and out
Took away my pain and gave me your smile
And at the time, still lovin someone else
I know why cause baby the reason why I felt the way i felt
And then one day I realize that you were the one for me
I was so blind, but baby now I see

And I'll never let you go, no, no, no
I love you so
And I'll get on both my knees and I'll beg you please
Will you spend the rest of your life with me
Cause I'll never play
Want to let you grow, oh
And I'll never play, no, no, no ,no, no, no, no

I wish that I could turn back the hands of time
Cause if I wouldov'e knew your love was like this
Back then I wouldov'e made you mine, oh yeah
If I had to die a thousand times a day
I would do it for you, just to take
The pain that I have given you away
Cause I love you and I never want to

And I'll never let you go, no, no, no
I love you so
And I'll get on both my knees and I'll beg you please
Will you spend the rest of your life with me
Cause I'll never play
Want to let you grow, oh
And I'll never play, no, no, no ,no, no, no, no

[Bridge:]
I'm sorry (oh yes I am)
I'm sorry (I'm so sorry baby)

And I'll never let you go, no, no, no
I love you so
And I'll get on both my knees and I'll beg you please
Will you spend the rest of your life with me
Cause I'll never play
Want to let you grow, oh
And I'll never play, no, no, no ,no, no, no, no

[ Current song on my blog]

2004-01-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

Feeling very lost. depress. sad. unhappy. confused. Cried because of a story which I did not know if it was true or not. Was really meaningful.. and it just is something you might expriences in your life too. sigh.. im not so sure. you can read it by yourself here. Thxs vashie. (: sigh

Mr chan changed my sitting in class. In fact he changed everybodies places. Im not sitting with dianne darling, and it is really sad. Sitting wif fiona now. shes ok, juz crap and over reactive. And noisy around my area. Apart from my friends at the back. What to do since I`m so short. Well everything is ok. tis 30th jan. fridae had tis science quiz. i flunk it. left the paper blank. Did not study the comb of chemicals. Pissed at myself.

Thursdae, 29th jan
I had an interview with erm the MOE. Miss Tay. She was realli sweet and kind, very friendly too. I think i talk and raise loads of suggestion. Wonder if i talked.. just a little to much. Hahax.. like i always do. Been getting all these pimple round my face. hahax.. well nic and dianne ok. everything ok.
Me and dianne hopes to get calli darling* a hug from pet for her 14th b`dae. (: happy calli.

Ahh sundae is coming. Going to have this party or so in my godmothers house. hope i can have some beer.. hopw to have something stronger. lolx..rather than some beer. Sneak some for mi plwess. (x haiz. been tired. didn`t get baminton. oh well. Grow fatter..as usual. (: Need to bring loads more clothes. and loads of people b`dae coming up. Rachh`s b`dae is tis sundae. she has a party. so i guess after church.. shall go to rachh`s party, den my cuz house. pretty tiring dae. wonder wat to wear. hahax. Can`t wait. Mr ong zi xuan. you owe me your picture. and im too tired to go after you. hope you will send it to me.. sigh.. anything. Well hope you like my new layout ok? feedbacks about how i can change it. no music for now. haven found a nice code.

I love you all.
My nemo: You take care. Stop being so blur.. and i knew i hate balls. Be more careful k. shall pray for you. god bless you. ((:

2004-01-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

ya short entry. shall write more about wat has been happening. quite a lot. while the time has come for me to slp. hahax changed the blogskin. hope you like it. the content hasn`t change much ya. (: tag my board to darlings. its dying hahax...

2004-01-23T02:15:00.000+08:00

~~blardy fucking xuan.~~ eh ger.. you like kou arx? XD oh boy and he thinks its funni. can`t he juz fucking ask? Well shit rite i dun like kou. and even if i do.. it can`t concern u much now can it. either way.

Happy chinese new year all. i dun even see wats so happy bout the new year.. everything is wrong. wtf is mr chan being my form teacher. wtf is it wif mi being the chair. wtf is it tat im gonna be interview. wtf is it that i have ppl coming wif love prob to mi. wtf is it that i have ppl in my family that cannot stop blaming me. wtf is it that i can`t have a good reason to join the cca i like. wtf is it that ppl make fun of my height. wtf is it that i can`t play the piano well. wtf is it that i can`t run. wtf is it that im juz a worm. wtf is it.. that im juz me.

U know wat. i love promise. like the kind u can`t keep? ya i kinda like those. cuz im so used to it. it doesn`t bothers mi. I have ppl who noes me better..and can get alone better wif mi. den.. any of u! mygod.. im totally crapping here! kk .. something wrong is in mah head. kk sorry.. shall go and slp.. and brainwash myself.. and maybe if im lucky i could die in my bed. (:

2004-01-21T01:34:00.000+08:00

ayye!! Hiya there fans. :x gonna change my blogskin after CNY. so those who like tis blog music betta come mroe often. LoLx damnnn todae was shox tired. And My bastard chan was ~~sho fucking~~ acting 'big'. argh.. these few week.. erm nth much juz that haven been onLine as often as ever. Changed my msn nick.. and it kinda sux! the pervious one was betta. =/ ahh juz caught up wif cny deco. and the ply wood. my gosh todae we had to rush it all and lucky we could finish it. thxs everybody to help. and MeL and Joanniee poo for staying back real late to pass it up. ((: And tis dianne!! Cannot stop playing wif the fact that my face turns red. -__-|| And that dae.. cuz alicia did some stop action.. and she was drinking green tea.. she decided to SPIT the whooooLLLLee thing in her mouth out! -__________-""" YEs EWwww~!! LoLx.. she is spit the whole lot of green tea. hahax. she couldn`t stop luffing. tsk tsk. CaLLi was pissed that didi spit some green tea on her bag too. I got a feeling maybe my ingrowing toenail is coming back.. *wimpers*

And todae.. i found out im go na be interviewed by the MOE next thursdae on 29th Jan!!!!!!!! WTH!? i mean..like wat are they gonna ask? how come shox suay choose untiL me. den den how!? den i cannot speak well..and and wat if i use singlish! lah leh horz~ and and...Film Flim Fliem. (((X sigh.. and im getting fatter! guess thats bout it. juz being pissed at some other things. =/ bt mostly the week is fine. Ong zi xuan. lolx. damn person who cannot sae hello when he sees me :X
kk gtg.. and Miss Lau. Wiee dun lend me the paint! You are on my black list now!. Muwahahahhahah! kk shall go and slp now. Tml theres sch.. but since my throat ain`t feeling well. im giving it a miss. :] dunnoe to be happy or not. the performence seems like it will be fun.. oh well.Goodnitey and t ppl.

2004-01-17T17:50:00.000+08:00

my immortal

my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

© 2003 Wind-Up Records

Really lurve tis song. Not that it juz sounds nice. but the fact some of the word would be words of love or concern or juz some feeling i have in myself i would like to relate to other ppl. Love is something shox profound i wonder how the dictionary have a definition for it. I haven neva experiences real pain or real love, and not being about to tell bout how it is to really fall in life. not really keen in experiencin it though. But to everybody out there. who knows me. [[You]] Do Have A P|acE in Mah HearT <3

2004-01-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ok~~ fine i spelled nick wrongly..it should be nic ok dianne?! LoLx man!! its soo fun sitting wf dianne and ard all moi darlinks. ok so ya the CNY deco thingy.. alicia and suki and some others went to chinatown to get somethings. and boy im telling you suki juz can`t shut ur freaking trap... mr chan was like asking.. 'Does the class kinda hate me?' boy and suki was like...go find out urself :X i mean u should like give a betta answer like tis (me).. "Ermx.. personal answer.. im netural... a teacher is there to guild me and teach me.. not for me to like nor hate. " See!! wat a great answer!! too bad i was not there XD miss me rite? :X went to play badminton wif thoma alicia and some other 1/7 gurls. Omg i can`t serve XD poor thing those who play wif moi.hahax and cuz i tired to hard in training..im aching all over.. T______T -Sobz-
being juz pretty tired but..still being able to cope wif everything. :)
kkz...so like somethingy like that lah..hahax oh boy chinese new year coming soon.. b o r i ng ~ ~ nth much lor..juz can`t wait to go out!! Ali! dianne!! everybody!! sara!! must come find moi! and NO DATES! tis ali..rhian...di...and dunnoe who..wan to have dunnoe wat triple date. den keep asking other ppl bring guys along to have a ..dunnoe how many date.. =/ im single dun suan me :X kk gtg do my art.. > . <;; cya peps~

2004-01-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

ok so one week after sch and started rite...or is it 2 week? either way i signed up for a new cca and..hopefully i can get in. Really happy i can see all my frens and all in sch... but surely not happy to know that mr bastard chan is my form teacher.. when sch reopened.. there was a choice..to stay for the election for class chair..or not. was really bothered by it.. but in the end after talking and seeking advices from my friends and all.. i decided to stay on. Its really nice..to noe im the chair ..again.. but wat irks mi is..im working under mr chan..ok so like im pretty much gettting settled down in sec 2 enviroment.. juz being feeling a litte empty inside.. present project for my class i chinese new year deco.. hope we win at least 3rd..i hope..tat is. oh and hope you all like the new layout. (((: Im still as short as ever and i lost 1.5 kg. i wonder if thats good or not. LoLx.. gonna have to change my specs.. kinda too big for mi. Oh..and got new chinese tution.. it is pretty good i think.. the teacher is not very boring and..the ppl there are..ehx..pretty nice. ok so AHH!! dianne is like sitting beside mi..and she goes on and on about her nick..lolx... " Nick!! omg he is shox shuai.. much betta den aveil..ugh... MAiney!! so like hows -bleep- tell him -bleep- -bleep-" me: ...ehx..ya k di..hahax..im not borthered cuz im loving myself onil for the moment. Maybe i shall go les... wahahaha..kk. XD.

Oh and 3 daes ago..was sitting bus home...I was sitting at ard the back..and 3 malay guys riitteeee at the back...

Malay guy: *talking some malay wif his fren.
Malay guy1: Hey gal.. u from which sch?
me: ehx..ji tp?
malay guy1: ooh..where is it?
me: huh?
malay guy1: where is it?
me: ooh..ermx..ard thomson there.
malay guy1: ook.. u sec wat?
me: 2
malay guy 3: ooh must study hard for ur N'level
me: o__o;;
malay guy 2: O'level lah!! express rite gal?
me:..hahax.. (-__-) ya..
malay guy3: ..ya must study hard
me: (nods)
malay guys: carry on talking.

wahaha ttupid or waT?
either way im shox sianz..and hope i do well tis terms.. :)

2004-01-11T17:52:00.000+08:00

Too lost in you
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear

I might lose my mind

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can mess with me
(No one can mess with me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

2003-12-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

Life For Rent

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive

If my life is for rent...

I have the mp3 of this song, if u want it juz..tell me.

2003-12-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

X`mas!!! *muack muack* HoHoHo~~!! B U T X`mas still suxs to me. Sch is going to reopen and stingy MOE is going to open it on a fridae and not waiting till mondae. #%$^$%! FINE. sheesh.

Ok so let i went to malaysia!! And boy was it fun fun fun. Rollercosters!! Weeee~~!! *screams* very real fun. I went wif like my cuz... cuz fren which i fink is my fren.. my godmother family and thats not important. Ok so like SHOPPING!! Yahooo!!
Oh and when nite comes the kid would be playing cards. And my Cuz was there wif her eX. And like i can hear whining :X nah shes juz a really sensitive darling. And the trip to Genting was COLD!! F R E E Z I N G. But the rides are pretty fun. Argh should have tried the 360 degree one. regret now. LoLx Missed my comp went i was awae, But i had shoooo muchie fun there. Miss all mi frenzz! but if i came back to sg...sch`s gonna reopen! 32$%@$#%!@#

X`mas is here. So like there is obviously x`mas party. uh huh uh huh. On x`mas eve went to somebody`s house. kinda played cards and all. Den off to church for midnight mass. And i wore..a
D R E S S OK! no luffing!! -pouts- And my hair looked good. :X ok. x`mas... Stayed at nite! Party too much ysd and came back at 3am+ and slp early in the morning...so i woke up like really late. LoLx -blushes- pai seh im a piggy Like You. :X ook..so like theres going to be a chalet as it is my cuz b`dae.. Hope i can play pool!

+claps+ Happy Birthday Sherlyn Darling. +huggles+

2003-12-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

i may be harmless,i will be innocent
I may know a lot of things, i may be ignorant.
or could side iwth kings and conquer many lands
or win this world at cards and let it slip my hands.
i could be cannon food. destroyed a thousand times.
reborn as a fortune'e child to judge another's crime.
or wear this pilgium cloack or be a common thief.
i've kept this single faith, i 've but one belief

i still love you
i stilll want you
a thousand times thoses mysteries unfold themselves
like galaxies in my hand
on and on the mysteries unwind themself
eternites still unfolds
till you love you.

2003-12-09T03:09:00.000+08:00

There was something wrong wif blogger ysd.. LoL oh well.. Im soo happy im going out wif Mel and joaniee and di and all soon! Yeah! hate the fact that x`mas is coming =x being wayyy slacking at home! Ooo painted my nail lol. Nth much to write..juz that.. thats all.. And that I know im not taken for granted for some ppl :)

ugh..juz posting some peoms... some are happy..but..as you can see mostly are not. LoL Fish & Co!! can`t wait to eat it again.. lol thats all!! And boring i tell ya.

Im going off to malaysia on the 16..gonna miss my comp..my friends and my family..will e going wif my cuzs >.< Miss ya!!

gtg..and..
Glad to know my exsitences was known. Hope you will be ..happier..though i think you are happy > . < but ur exsitences means something to me. Bleahz.. Mushy i tweelll ur! > . <

2003-12-09T03:04:00.000+08:00

Your words
So sweet
So soft
So cruel
Lead me to believe
Emotions you say
That you have felt
And I
Am left
Alone
Your words
So gentle
So clever
So false
I could not have concieved
That this pain
Could come
From you
Alone
Your words
So close
So near
So far
From believing what you said
Actions speak stronger
Than words
Alone
Your words
So empty
So hollow
So gone

2003-12-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

A voice within

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

2003-12-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

I was losing hope
In something we both had together
For some things you say
I don't know why it does not come out right

Love song playing track by track
Feeling lonely as time goes by
You are so close yet so far.
When I was feeling alone
You weren't there.

For what was one known as love
has become something in my view
of getting your attention
There was chances for an improvement
There was chance for something to be changed
Future tells if we took the chance or not.

I had comfort from you
Concern from you
I don't know if that was not enough
But I was feeling missing from your heart
With solitude surrounding me
For needing someone to love and care
And to receive love from someone
with the same feeling as me.

2003-12-03T00:42:00.000+08:00

Something NOT mature i did tis pretty long ago K!!

I have not found what I am looking for
If I die will u know
If I do not even smile will you notice?
If things did not turn out that way
It might have been different
When the sky turn black and when everybody turn their back on me
Will you be there?
To comfort me to be with me...to hope and encourage me to the end
When I walk away will you hold me and ask me to stay?
Feeling so lost
Finding the pieces of confused me
When is the day you know that words will not hurt me?
When is it that you will hope the best for me?
When I am stronger
Will you come back to me?
Or will u just be like the rest
Letting me think...
Love is just too much for me to take

2003-12-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

I'm stripping myself of my wings tonight
I'm putting away the innocence
I'll be unkind
I'm searching for what's me tonight
I'm pulling of the mask
I'll be a fright
I'm gonna cry real tears tonight
I'm gonna have a stream of red hot blood
I'll be, in spite
I'm finding my way home tonight
I'm screaming out to you
I'll be alright

2003-12-01T17:31:00.000+08:00

Gosh so shit i tell you!! T_T It is the !st day of December!!!! ANd i have so many things not done!! Im DEAD MEAT. I can`t find my booklist..so like..can somebody send me? e-mail me? or call me? or msn msg me? or sms me? TO TELL MI WAT BOOKS TO BUY!! T_T well been pretty much doing my piano thing thing....sch wk...but i have not borrow any books... oh can anyone tell me..the book presentation thingy do we have to write it down? or ..like wat?

I bought my Cds!! ^^v oh and i miss you all so much.. i been at home facing fucked up ppl...bothering me wif things that does not even concern me! oh bother.. hai...can`t get my work done by pulling troubles in my way.. oh bother..
you know that feeling where you really need somebody next to you..to listen to you..you encourage you and juz a shoulder to lean on?? ugh...who cares..

Either way i think i got -Bleep- ...but let nature takes it course ((: Been playing games and all doing ym work watching ainme.. And my friends out there hows ur hols coming along? Feel free to call me if you juz wanna chat :))

Please I Need help cause i lost my booklist! so if you have msn add mi and ..like tell me wat i need to buy >_< ilive4moi@msn.com :D plz....help me!! Tag my board and i changed my layout!! I WAN TO GO BUGIS!!!

2003-11-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

lol heya!!!! :P i do come to the blog lol juz that i neva update it cuz i wan to see if anyone knows i neva update!! =x
actually it is a good excuse..ain`t it hehez. :D oh well Good News my toe i pretty much ok liao and no more bandage juz that i have to be careful when i walk. oh Im going to cut my hair tml gosh finally!! New hair style~~ Heya im going to Malaysia on like..dec 16? So im going to like go out my all my freenssy b4 it is too late! >____< Freaking sch still gib homework..and my damn piano teacher is killing my fingers!! Eeeek~!! oh well and am rotting at home man im soo ever lazy lol. oh bother well xuan...and..me has been...o..kay. Lol been playing online games wif him..hehe ^^;;

Why my friends how is ur hols going? miss you all man and di how was ur..*ahem date =x
oh bother i nid to go now..to play games!! lol the skin will be changed in hm..on saturdae :D
oh ya i will be having an outing? like a meeting/ going out wif my online frens lol but..it is tml and i can`t make it lol oh bother well :P and gosh i wan the Linkin Park CD & DVD you know that new one. And the Hot Joint CD wif all the hip hop songs :D and the Micheal Jackson new album. X`mas IS coming ya??! *hints Hints =xXxXx

kk will be going off now and tag my blog peps.. Love ur always and have a good holiday. God bless ya.

2003-11-07T17:29:00.000+08:00

Wahaha rite so my blog is much more irritating now :D man wif me toe...bathing is soooo sooo ever hard..damn lol
Been in irc for the few daes can`t really walk..rather i have to LIMP!?! rite..so irc fight here fight there..as usual ya. And been dling songs!! *ahem Been very so lonely there few daes oh well.
and I think i will give up on zi xuan...i doubt he comes to tis blog thats why i write tis lol. ~.~ like Im the one putting in effort and all and he is like..erm..like that. so nah I guess he has a stead to oh well. Bless him and OoooOooo lunch is here!! Hee :D~~ so going to eat le..and do tag my board ya?? ok gtg!!

Classmates: Yoz lets go out one day ya?? and the com members MIGHT be planing something. And If ur blog has my link and the name has the word 'chair' change it..CUZ I FREE NOW!!! Muhahahaha ^^b so change that ya..My Mee its getting cold..so cya suckers! =x

2003-11-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

RITE!!! its Done!! Theres the tag board..the music is up..and the layout..hmm dun think i will change it that soon now!
its look reali relac..lol so if you dun like it..well too bad you still must tag my board!! which is ^^RITE BELOW
So i when for the toe op yst??! it was so pain can... Blast..so ya and blood blah blah the injection was the one thats pain.
Now its sch hols..and i miss my frens!!!! T_T miss you guys man..go out somedae ya!! ...When my toe is ok lol
Todae is the collection of the report book. 3 person in ur class are going normal. Im going to miss them.. =/
Rite my toe is hurting!! and you noe what..one dae when like whoever im going out wif tis hols..i shall tell you all bout my experience like the toe thingy and wat happen on the op dae..lol KEWL YA!?? hee okok gtg cya!!

Tag The Damn Board ...PLwweeee :D

2003-11-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

rite you see im TRYING to get the tag board but its hard can??!! wonder how come tis skin like shoo hard to put it in X___x?

2003-11-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

oppss..i typed that cuz blogger was down juz now?? and i have to retype EVERYTHING ??!!

*ahem so erm...actually no it is posted liao!!! Read ar plweesss it is the 3rd one >________________<

2003-11-02T02:19:00.001+08:00

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2003-11-02T02:19:00.000+08:00

wahahaha nobody tag mah board..shesh..i will get angry one noe~~ oh either way im going to change my layout so0oon... lol i change it every 2 week ^^ ok rite gtg write a poem cuz im in a mood to lol.
Man i tell ur ar..lol i missed mah 'DeaR' when he was not online..now he online..he seems like i perfer him not online cuz i can miss him. Hai..he did not sae hi to me?? He was playting some Gunbound wif mah kor..T_T soo sad...oh well i think he got someone but still..my heart..shesh.. <>

Ugh oh well i thin you man mah mother is crapping me out!! and im out of brassssss *squeaks

2003-10-31T15:30:00.000+08:00

wahoo!! last dae of sch!!
hai..i dunnoe I've been thinking like who am I what paht im taking blah blah..Its like am lost?
im juz passing such dae as it comes im a lonely person but yet im always so hype and i know i have frens.
So like wat is wrong...?
Depression some sae but i think im plain crazy either way im find myself and i meet wif difficutlies but my frens are there for me.

Came home todae there was nobody Yeah!!~~!!
then soon mah mum and sis came back..then the nagging starts and accusing starts but im juz so used to it. I mean like hey it is my life and ya you are my mum and all but you are not thinking bout ur own actions and words and there you come shooting ur words at me. Damnit i Rennn but one dae it juz ain't going to hold.

2003-10-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

Todae! Gosh...Father Micheal and Trevenor erm..if that is how you spell his name..anyway Todae was wayyyyy BORING!!
man and Mel did not come!! T_T miss you mel mel~~ Drink more water ya!! And if you don't feel good don't force yourself to come tml. Oh and I'm watching the 9 pm and..Ewww my gosh..if ur watched it you know wat i mean .___.
So tml going to check papers again..and i hope i can pass it All!! ->Screams<- oh well betta pray harder >__<
Ugh short entry cuz nid to do B`dae card. Tml is my sister`s bf B`dae ^___^ and she is struggling try to sew a bear for him lol wish for luck.

Pass All Subject!!!!

Like mah New Layout??! Lol Sexy ya -> Winks <- Tag my board!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-10-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

hey! hey! damn toes..STILL bleeding hor..
tml checking of papers...die le..die le... either way i change my tag board!! So obiviously you can tag le lah! -_____-
and..the music!! change le!!! too..SHUTUP!! SHUT Up! juz Shut up! juz shout it out blah blah..lol dun like the song..onil the shut up part ^^v oh wel.. DIANNE!!! I got the song..stacey's mum!! >____________< hehe oh well..ok lah! gtg to orh orh ^^ soo good nite!! tis song ar..soon will change lah lol and the layout..in 2 weeks time will change!! and tag my board sucker! =xXx

Good luck for tml peps ^_________^

2003-10-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

ugh..god bloody leadership thing thing..SEe See now my darlink toes bleeding...T_T sniff sniff..
hai..well juz went round the whole of toa payoh..and blah blah..see lah! i soo tired..until blogging also almost fall asleep..-_-
ugh..and Mama sooo shuai!! and my tag board still cannot tag leh...why ar?? lol Hey hey ppl!! you see all my quiz below horz.....got some is ur can take part one..even though i delete some of the links so you can't go.. =xXx..but there are some i neva delete so you can play!!! so nice hors >__<
lol k k gtg..dl songs!!

Shut up shut up juz shut up x 2 wahahaha SHUDDUP! ^^v

2003-10-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

hai..man feelign so low and wanna pour all mah feeling out but..hai...
so be it..i sux..i sux..i sux...

Yes you:Could you plz stop talking to other ppl and to me as if you understand and know my well...it annoys me as you make assumtions. Leave me alone if you are that busy as you sae you are. You said things bout me...i tried my best to change it..however you did not notice it or said anything bout it..you scolded me more...and left me feeling that everything i did in tis world is wrong and taken for granted.

Honestly...really can't you read my heart?Ya..you are the one i love..you dun blog..or wadsoever and hai..i dun ever think you will see tis..And it is not really the alter boy lah k di.lol hai..i dunnoe my feelings for you cuz everything in my life is like going so fast...yet im so slow? if you have any against mi i hope you tell me..i did not dare sae anything to you..cuz i was afriad you would hurt other ppl or have a hard time answering me..but one dae...i hope to see you wif that smilie on ur face telling me..you are happy...

2003-10-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

i tell me tis tag board sux lah...CANNOT TAG HORs??!! tsk tsk tsk....
Oh well.todae had the URA gallery thing thing..and it is like so boring ya, not onil that i was sooo shock and scare when i see mel and cornie was not there..aiyo..ur dun go tell us lah..make us sho worried..ur ar..
so at the gallery watch some..LAME and i mean LAME video..and i think the video was made..like years ago?? ugh then we were given tis w/s which was..erm..no it was juz that we were lazy XD so we didn't do it. LoL.
Thoma, di, joanny, althea and me..were juz strolling around. Then later quite a few thailand people came out to us..saying something. Obviously at 1st we could not understand so..it was like ..Huh?? Huh?? haha then I (!!) was the 1st one who realise they wanted to take a pic wif us.being such Nice (*ahem) ppl would took lah. And then it was non-stop can.!! Own jaws were like..droppin?? wahaha anyway.thats bout ti..and one of them knew how to speak chinese so ahem duh me was one the talking more lah! lol and they gave us pillow thing thing..aiyo!! KAWAII NE~~~ haha okok gtg
cuz i fed up wif my mum..

2003-10-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

Gosh im soo tired...*phew went out to orchard todae!! WEeee!! Went wif mel di thoma and cornie~~! Kewl ar~ lol..then at far east met althea and charmine (2/8). and that althea saw her bf..desmond...Oh and all the while before we meet althea they all we were gossiping =xXx so fun!! arg but oh well dun feel like blogger liao..lol my feet hurts!! oh ya..and sooo malu!! aiyo...i was siting the 2 bus ride home and i drop my hp!!! omg...malu and there was tis guy..standing near my..ugh. hey wadevea.. >___< ''' oh well tag my board ya ppl!! and exmas are soooo over.but..stewpid post exams thing thing...watse my time!!! but oh well. oh oh had D&T ppl todae..and..Fail le fail le..lol expected ^.- okok gtg ..doing..something lol cya //muacks~

2003-10-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

Woah! like tis chinese was erm...so-so? damnit!! i soooo do not know how to write the erm..han zi! and like ugh the ping ying and all was...as usually a totally 'huh??' However the compre was easy and overrall ...i can pass wif..sae.. an A2? ^^v
okok listen to some piano pieces now..nice you know!! lol
Todae after exam i went Mcdonales << Starts singing im loving it>> wif Mel Joanny and A|icia. Haha So fun and were chating blah blah and erm..ate big breakfast? haha and ya...mostly it was lame XD
after that i went home and man!! it started rain 1/2 way while i was waiting for my 2nd bus... =/ so when it reached the bus stop...i had to wait there like a fool for the rain to subside.. shesh.....was sooo freaking cool!!! Rain so heavily..wonder if mel got caught in it too? oh well waited there 45mins and..after that did not wan to wait i rain to ther other bus top.
Waited awhile longer then ran up the slope to my house backgate.and then ran ANOTHER slope to my block.. -.-''
was all drenched...<> lol so well now im back home..all cosy <> lol okok gtg..play some plays and bother ppl!`^.^

Ezams are over!!! Like..Party Party Party!! << Starts singing Chihuahua>> Chihuahua!!Chihuahua!-winks-

2003-10-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

Oooo okok so im like posting again!!! And hey...Tis skin roxs ya? I got a tag board now..SO NO excuse for you not to tag moi!. History tml...however im sooo not going to study aduh~ i took up the history book..and ugh Mr cHan..OMG! I actually put his freak name in my darlink blog?? he sooo do not have that honour~ bleah~ and YAy!! Finally i got mei(di) song! *phew~ Gotta find more! hai..tml fail le..but..it is ok..rite? omg...i dunoe..but tag me ya!! ^-^

2003-10-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

Weeee hey hey Fiona blog!! go see Nice ya!! lol im going to change my layout soon..and it is going to be SEXY!! //grins
Oh well lit exam todae..was...ok lah but did not have much time to finish up the last qus...=/ shesh... //cruses
OH and...erm...I have not seen DEar for 3 weeks and 3 daes!!! Shuacks..Hope he does well for his exam! //screams!
haha okok gtg have fun...// think to herself..aren't i suppose to study?
rite.... -__-'' okok go liao! Good luck for exams peps!

2003-10-12T14:48:00.000+08:00

ok it is the final year exams...Yet i still cannot get down shutup and study!! Damnit...Doing cip accounts now...damn messy dunnoe how to do sia....ANd yet im blogging??! -_- so have not seen my dear online for 3 weeks...hai... Chinese and scinece on mondae..Ewwww okok gtg study...! remember cheryl has a blog!! ^-^ tag her ppl!!

2003-10-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

You weren't there_-_ Lene Marlin

She came home just won the game
Long time struggle she fulfilled her dream
All she wanted was to make you proud
You weren't there

Had his birthday a few days ago
He got some presents, a big party too
And there were congratulation cards
As it used to be for
Not ever one from you

You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this every day
I see it in their heads
Wonder if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again

She cut herself on that piece of paper
It didn't hurt but she saw the blood
She could need that embrace
You weren't there

Did he have to cry louder?
Would that make you hear him?
You see his heart was broken
For the first time

You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this every day
I see it in their heads
Wonder if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again

You cannot turn back time
I wish that to come true
They're making up these stories about you

You weren't there
Distant far away
It's like this every day
I see it in their heads
Wonder if you'll come
Afraid to close their eyes
And miss you once again
Miss you once again...

2003-10-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

White Flag_-_ Dido
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door

I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
As I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

2003-10-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

Weee so like haha tis is going to be it! tos skin..not bad rite? or should i change to a sex one? hm okok goinjg to study buaiz~

2003-10-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

Shoo cute ya??! lol
so exam times are here..Stess?? been slacking sia!! arrg i hate art!! dunnoe wat to draw..wonder if can tell zailee..i gib up give me 0 ba. =/
oh well...D&T suxs too! and It was mama(xiao shuai ge) b'dae..haha got her hair spray and Impuse~ hope she likes it. well gtg do maths..i mean.im studying??! shocking...>_<

2003-10-01T19:23:00.000+08:00

maybe a new skin ya?